so something has been going on the past couple weeks, but i realized it wasn't something that i really wanted so i took care of it.......look at that.....im really becoming an adult. as scary as it is, its quite a rush as well. i love it!

the moon is beautiful tonight. i do wish that i had someone to cuddle up with in bed and just fall asleep. i miss that feeling. its just so safe and wonderful. spring break is almost here already. i can't believe it. i have an interview and a live assessment for my practicum. i really hope that i get it. ruthann told me that rochester is predominately english, but i can deal with that. it makes me feel alot less nervous about the live assessment.

andy is coming to rochester with me for break. i think that's going to help my nerves alot. just to know that someone is there will help alot. even though he really doesn't know sign ;) i can't wait to go horseback riding.....tom and duke are waitin! i was hoping to find like a theatre event or something but we'll see. i would be happy staying at home, hangin out, and watchin movies. i miss the kid like crazy. he pierced his labret again ........can't wait to see that.

my roomies jess and chrissy are amazing people! i've had so much fun with them, michael, and a few other good friends the past couple weeks that i wouldn't change anything that's been going on if i had to lose that. i love it! we started playing DDR........im defiantely not the most coordinated person in the world..........i hope that's not like a test to see how well you really dance becuase if it is, i look like a moron!

well kiddies....time for bed.

love

im in a cooking mood today.......gonna go to the grocery store and make some things for the week.

wow....its been a while. my mom and i aren't really talking........i've never felt more like a disappointment in my life than i did today. i think my sister is selfish and finally told her that. i realized that i give in too easily. im losing trust in someone that i thought i would never doubt. i saw a good play today. i don't feel good. i sang along with the radio and it made me feel better. i decided to not go to the bar tonight. spring break is soon and im nervous. i have an interview and a live assessment in the same day. i have to grow up soon. i feel im ready for something, but someone else has to be ready for it too. im scared. i miss someone greatly. i feel strong. i heard from a really old friend last week and it made my day. Scott, buddy, you should come home to PA for a visit. the vagina monolouges are next week. im watching anastasia. i want to go to russia. i miss my dad. i want to see my other sister, and the kids. i need new glasses. i have to finish my resume. shit i have a test next week. i should be in bed. i love post secret, but am scared to send in my secrets cause im afraid that someone will figure out that its me. i have secrets. i keep my heart locked to most people. im tired. i love my theatre classes. cloud 9 is a great play. this is really random.

okay so that was just a stream of concious thoughts.............sorry not a real update tonight......maybe later